Day 18

NET CALORIES: 1150

Reflection
I ALMOST didn't workout again. I was making the excuse that I was still recovering from my stomach ache last night and that I deserved a break since it was my last day of work. But the workout prevaileth! Once I got home and realized I still had energy, I remembered: I MADE A COMMITMENT.

Also, I officially finished my two weeks of P90X. That puts me four days behind. I'm hoping to catch up next week. I just haven't decided if I'll really give my body the relaxing week or just plow on ahead...

Day 17

Net Calories: 1250

Balance

Reflection
It's hard you know? I'm in the midst of a move and things are really starting to pile down hard on me. It's giving me anxiety which of course gives me stomach aches...which makes me not work out. Life is a serious balancing act. Extreme and rigid. Even life threatening I think. Many times I have the nerves of walking a line like this man above.

But he does it! And I want to be happy. And not push or hurt myself. So if that means not working out today, I'm totally ok with it. I'll catch up eventually. Right now I'm at 4 days behind which is pretty much another week. I'll probably just forgo the week off? I don't know I'm still thinking it through. But I just know that today, it's right to no work out for my inner health.

Day 16

Net Calories: 1120 

Reflection
Today was a GREAT for health. I went the whole morning not eating anything sweet. All because of breakfast. I've felt so much better today because of it. Less hungry, more alert, productive, and positive!

Also, POINTER TO ALL P90Xers: Distract yourself with other things while working out. Lately I've been watching reruns of TV shows I like. Since I'm already getting sick of Tony's jokes it helps distract me from the monotony. Don't watch anything new or you'll get into it. But just have a little bit of something to interest you can give the distraction you need while doing wall squats and jap/cross!

Day 15

Net Calories: 1535

Reflection
I'm still eating way to much to really lose weight. I know I'm still figuring everything out but by now I feel like that's not an excuse. But it is what it is, and I'll try better. I have been weighing myself and have gone down slightly (but the stuff isn't too reliable). Anyways, my big goal is to be more nutritious and base on today, I think I did ok!

Calories
hot coco 120
candy 200
wrap 475
chips 200
Duck 400
Edamame 170
Chocolate croissant 350
Oatmeal 220
TOTAL: 2135

Exercise  P90X -600 Calories
Chest and Back
Plyometrics
Shoulders and Arms
Yoga
Legs and Back
Kenpo

Day 14

NET CALORIES: 1630

WEEK AVERAGE NET CALORIES: 1450

Reflection
Two weeks into my new regime and I'm proud of myself. I still have the desire, still have the driving keeping me going. Still looking at my highschool picture waiting for that girl to come out again.

I loved this Gold's Gym advertisement. And I think it was a good lead in to a point I've wanted to make for a while I know I'm not fat. I'm actually already pretty skinning. I'm a 5'8.5", 142lb 24-year-old and It's really not anything to be ashamed of. But I NEED this for me. I have looked better. I have felt better. I remember the better. And I'm driven to find it again.

Day 13

NET CALORIES: 1500

Reflection
I'm again having problems on my nutritional content. It's so hard to work, workout, and stay balanced with everything else! I have a life outside of working and working out! And I don't have time to go to the store. Is that ok Tony? Will I still lose weight Tony? I'm giving my best, do I really forget the rest?!"

Day 12

NET CALORIES: 1360

"You're only as good as your training, and your training is only as good as your thinking."

-Lena, Pandemonium

Reflection:
Tonight I went to a concert at the Beachland Ballrom. It was a rocking good time but I definitately have NO ENERGY to workout afterwards. But I danced well while I was there. And after being a dancer through all of highschool, I know that counts for something!

I also have been reading Lauren Oliver's Pandemonium on the rides to and from work and I love the way the protagonists view running and exercise. It's funny, the book really has nothing to do with exercising. But this quote above really stuck out to me and I certainly agree with it. Mind over matter my friends.

Day 11

"Stop beating yourself up if you can't sustain and/or maintain your "perfect" plan. It's okay to miss a workout once in a while. It doesn't mean that your process has gone to hell in a handcart. It doesn't mean you have to start over. Life happens. Priorities shift. So what? Big deal. Just start up where you left off. If you're doing Power 90 or P90X, just add the missed days to the end of the program. I decree the burden lifted! Of course, you must recognize the difference between a missed workout or two and a missed week or two. If you miss 2 weeks of exercise, it will take at least that long to get back to where you left off. If you miss one workout once in a while, you lose nothing. The extra day off can even do the body good." -Tony Horton

Net calories: 2090

Reflection:
Well, yet another day where I didn't work out. It's those darn Thursdays throughout me off...I'm still not entirely sure how I'll counteract it. The quote above made me feel much better about it though. I need that kind of positive reenforcement from "my trainer Tony." But just as long as I can still balance the week out with my right calories ill be ok. But I'll tell you one thing, after today's splurge, I have a ways to go.

Day 10

Net Calories: 900
Reflection:
Wow. I'm way under calories today. That feels nice but I wonder if I should eat more right now for good measure. After all, I need the calories for the workouts! I definitely feel like things were just a little more manageable. I have another goal now though: get rid of my tense, constipated faces when I work out. But at least I know I don't look like this lady.

Day 9

NET CALORIES: 1410

Reflection
Well, it's been a little over a week now and I am starting to inspect myself. I notice a slight definition increase in my arms and legs already which is great! I'm just seeing absolutely NOTHING in my core. I know I'm working it though. At the end of this first phase I will take photos and then really reassess my caloric intake. Getting the energy again because it's a new week! I wish there were a way to remember this fantastic feeling after the workout. Because getting to the workout is the hardest part.

Day 8

NET CALORIES: 1250

i need these girls to inspire me!!!

Reflection
Well today I officially finished my week of p90x and I have to say I'm kind of worried. Firstly, it took me longer than a week so I just hope I can catch up and keep up. I'm moving to Texas in a few days and will really have to prioritize it on the drive south. Secondly, it was freaking hard!!! I don't know how I'm going to be motivated to do more of thse workouts when I hate them so much! I'll just have to look for more sexy girl bodies to motivate me. Thirdly, my splurge day kind of got me out of wack. I was more legathic and less willing to do the workout. Also, I wanted to eat worse and you can see by my intake that I didn't do very well nutrition wise. But tomorrow I'll be back at work and back on my salads-for-lunch diet which will certainly help.

Day 7

NET CALORIES: 1780

I MADE IT THROUGH WEEK ONE!!!

So proud of myself for sticking this out so far. This is the first time in over a year that I have prioritized and stuck with an exercise goal for a week. That sounds kind of ridiculous but it is also because I set way too high of expectations in the past. This workout is easier to maintain because it's at my home. Also, I guess I technically have not finished my "week 1" because I didn't to the Legs/Back day of P90X. To catch up, I'll do four days of resistance this week and two cardio. Then, on my "week 4" or recovery week, I will put in Kenpo on the Monday and then follow the rest of the week. For those of you unfamiliar with the P90X program, here is a website explaining my workout schedule.

As for my nutrition breakdown, I had a net calorie intake this week of 1501. Though it is a bit higher than my 1275 goal, it is perfect to me. I can't set the expectation that I'll be perfect on the first week with my portion control. But even with this number, I know I'll definitely still lose weight. Now I just need a legit scale to really monitor the progress...

Day 6

NET CALORIES: 1400

Reflection

Last workout day of the week! We made curry for dinner so I didn't start my workout until like 11. Sad side note- I did the Kenpo X workout a year ago and it totally felt easy to me. Today it kicked my trash!

But its like what they say: 

Calories
Home fries- 200
Omelet- 500
Curry- 400
Quinoa- 150
Chocolate Acari berries- 100
Cracklin oat bran- 300
Pizza- 250
TOTAL:  2000

Exercise: P90X  -600 calories

Chest & Back
Plyometrics
Arms & Shoulders
Yoga
Legs & Back
Kenpo

Day 5

NET CALORIES: 1230

I have a feeling I'm going to say this a lot, but I ALMOST didn't work out today I was just lying in bed with my husband watching a sitcom when all the sudden this commercial comes up:

Do you even see her legs?! I have no idea what Target is trying to accomplish with these videos but they certainly helped me get off my butt and into the dining room for a little workout!

Day 4

NET CALORIES: 1620

Does it count?!? -no...

Reflection:Does it count if I ate less today but didn't really work out? No. Bah, I'm so mad at myself but I think it is unrealistic to think I will actually make all my workouts in a week. Probably will only make 5. But better to expect six and only get five than expect five and only get four...

I will do the ninety days of P90X though. Maybe it won't put me ending on April 14th like I anticipated but I will at least finish.

Day 3

NET CALORIES: 1290

Reflection:
Super happy that I was under calories today. That gives me the opportunity to catch up from yesterday and hopefully splurg more on my splurg day!!!

Day 2

NET CALORIES: 1630



Reflection:
Today was a good day. I'm surprised I went over my calories intake. But I still feel like I was healthy the whole time. The workout rocked me! Go figure, I hate chest and back.

Day 1

NET CALORIES: 1560

Today is my first day of my "healthy me" challenge!

I'm doing a makeshift health plan as follows:

• workout to P90X classic plan at least on the "strength" training days (3 times a week)
• if i'm not doing the P90X cardio I have another kind of workout or activity going on that day (skiing, running, dancing, household chores etc).
• Net worth eating of approx. 1600 a day. This means that my total caloric intake minus my activity burn off will equal 1600.
• Eat a salad for lunch on work days.
• Eat breakfast daily
• Allow one splurg day per week where I can eat more than alotted calories
• If I meet all the criteria, allow myself a lowfat dessert each day (dark chocolate bar piece, hot chocolate)
• write in my healthy me journal to mark progress and document feelings.

If I follow these steps I will:

1. lose 10 lbs
2. have more defined muscles around my entire body
3. have a better sense of my body needs
4. better control my cravings
5. become more energetic
6. sleep better

In my journal I will document my calorie total, workout progress and reflections on how I think the day went. Lets get started!

Day 0

GETTING PUMPED UP!!!!!