Day 18

NET CALORIES: 1150

Reflection
I ALMOST didn't workout again. I was making the excuse that I was still recovering from my stomach ache last night and that I deserved a break since it was my last day of work. But the workout prevaileth! Once I got home and realized I still had energy, I remembered: I MADE A COMMITMENT.

Also, I officially finished my two weeks of P90X. That puts me four days behind. I'm hoping to catch up next week. I just haven't decided if I'll really give my body the relaxing week or just plow on ahead...

Day 17

Net Calories: 1250

Balance

Reflection
It's hard you know? I'm in the midst of a move and things are really starting to pile down hard on me. It's giving me anxiety which of course gives me stomach aches...which makes me not work out. Life is a serious balancing act. Extreme and rigid. Even life threatening I think. Many times I have the nerves of walking a line like this man above.

But he does it! And I want to be happy. And not push or hurt myself. So if that means not working out today, I'm totally ok with it. I'll catch up eventually. Right now I'm at 4 days behind which is pretty much another week. I'll probably just forgo the week off? I don't know I'm still thinking it through. But I just know that today, it's right to no work out for my inner health.

Day 16

Net Calories: 1120 

Reflection
Today was a GREAT for health. I went the whole morning not eating anything sweet. All because of breakfast. I've felt so much better today because of it. Less hungry, more alert, productive, and positive!

Also, POINTER TO ALL P90Xers: Distract yourself with other things while working out. Lately I've been watching reruns of TV shows I like. Since I'm already getting sick of Tony's jokes it helps distract me from the monotony. Don't watch anything new or you'll get into it. But just have a little bit of something to interest you can give the distraction you need while doing wall squats and jap/cross!

Day 15

Net Calories: 1535

Reflection
I'm still eating way to much to really lose weight. I know I'm still figuring everything out but by now I feel like that's not an excuse. But it is what it is, and I'll try better. I have been weighing myself and have gone down slightly (but the stuff isn't too reliable). Anyways, my big goal is to be more nutritious and base on today, I think I did ok!

Calories
hot coco 120
candy 200
wrap 475
chips 200
Duck 400
Edamame 170
Chocolate croissant 350
Oatmeal 220
TOTAL: 2135

Exercise  P90X -600 Calories
Chest and Back
Plyometrics
Shoulders and Arms
Yoga
Legs and Back
Kenpo

Day 14

NET CALORIES: 1630

WEEK AVERAGE NET CALORIES: 1450

Reflection
Two weeks into my new regime and I'm proud of myself. I still have the desire, still have the driving keeping me going. Still looking at my highschool picture waiting for that girl to come out again.

I loved this Gold's Gym advertisement. And I think it was a good lead in to a point I've wanted to make for a while I know I'm not fat. I'm actually already pretty skinning. I'm a 5'8.5", 142lb 24-year-old and It's really not anything to be ashamed of. But I NEED this for me. I have looked better. I have felt better. I remember the better. And I'm driven to find it again.

Day 13

NET CALORIES: 1500

Reflection
I'm again having problems on my nutritional content. It's so hard to work, workout, and stay balanced with everything else! I have a life outside of working and working out! And I don't have time to go to the store. Is that ok Tony? Will I still lose weight Tony? I'm giving my best, do I really forget the rest?!"

Day 12

NET CALORIES: 1360

"You're only as good as your training, and your training is only as good as your thinking."

-Lena, Pandemonium

Reflection:
Tonight I went to a concert at the Beachland Ballrom. It was a rocking good time but I definitately have NO ENERGY to workout afterwards. But I danced well while I was there. And after being a dancer through all of highschool, I know that counts for something!

I also have been reading Lauren Oliver's Pandemonium on the rides to and from work and I love the way the protagonists view running and exercise. It's funny, the book really has nothing to do with exercising. But this quote above really stuck out to me and I certainly agree with it. Mind over matter my friends.